Mel's Puddle of Thought

mel's puddle of thought ...
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And I have to speculate that God himself Did make us into corresponding shapes like Puzzle pieces from the clay :: from "such great heights", track two on the postal service's album "give up" :: Tuesday, October 28, 2003 It's still raining ash and I think my life is falling apart. its funny how I was on such a high on saturday and sunday, and even yesterday until i got home from work. when am i going to realize that the reality of my situation is so much different then how i live my life? i'm not really sure i want to, actually. i can't believe that i get yelled at first for not wanting to have to pay for school myself and then for working too much and not caring about school anymore. its not my fault i had to grow up when i was about twelve. there's a reason everyone at work thinks i'm 25. i didn't just magically get this way. irresponsible parenting, that's how. i'm finally doing something with my life that doesn't revolve around trying to keep stupid bloody peace between my parents. i like my job. school is just something i do so that i can get a degree and get on with my life. i'm ready to move to washington with tom and get on with my life already. i think i'm done ranting now. you're lucky i didn't try to write something lastnight. that would have been bad..... this written by Mel at 7:39 PM Saturday, October 25, 2003 SoCo ROCKS!!!! Oh My Gosh the show was so amazing (eventhough it was raining ash) and I actually got some good pictures (eventhough it was raining ash) and I got to meet them and they were really nice and they signed my shirt!!!!!! It was the coolest thing ever. I've never been so excited. I can't wait to go see them again 8 November in Hollywood. woo hoo!!! Okay, gota go to Tower again to get a get up kids cd and also soco's first cd, "leaving through the window," since April has mine. They signed my shirt! Woo Hoo!!! this written by Mel at 6:54 PM today i meet soco. i'm so excited. actually i'm just excited to get to see them play. still no word from either sean or arlene.... to console myself for the possibilities of maybe going alone, i think i'll buy myself a camera today. yeah this written by Mel at 8:37 AM Friday, October 24, 2003 also, on an interesting side note, appariantly ants like honey nut cherios this written by Mel at 6:36 PM SoCo is Sooooo good! They're playing at the Tower Records in Brea for FREE tomorrow, beginning at 2. I was going to go with Sean from my dad's tennis club but he missed our lunch yesterday and I haven't heard from him... maybe he got eaten by a giant people eater. And that's okay, since I think I really want Arlene from work to come with me... she needs a fun day out. We just booked Salvador for the worship conference next july. They are really good, and I'd listen to them more but I have to listen to SoCo 24/7 until the concert in November. When I get a chance I'll post a link to thier site. Appariantly I'm Eclectic. Which is good... I guess.... at least it sounds better than "odd." What else is news? Midterms begin next week. Death. this written by Mel at 6:22 PM Wednesday, October 22, 2003 SoCo's new album North is soooo good. Check out: new So Co player for tracks!! More later, I have a ton of papers to write.... this written by Mel at 8:04 PM Tuesday, October 14, 2003 i realized somewhere in my dilusional, fever-ed state that school just stopped mattering for me. i wonder when that happened. the realization of the fact doesn't bother nearly as much as the strange calm that accompanies it..... why aren't i more freaked out about this? this written by Mel at 8:56 PM lost my plans for thanksgiving a couple days ago... think i'm loosing my plans for christmas now... anybody want to get together? I've really got to start building my own life..... this written by Mel at 8:32 PM Monday, October 13, 2003 i keep finding myself lost amid giant growing mountains of pillow-ey pink kleenex. in other news my dad and i have decided to join the rest of the civilized world. we finally succumbed to everything that the dish network has to offer. for dad, that was fox news. for me... the bbc. what's that you say? there are other stations on the dish? not as far as we're concerned. bbc... here i come.... .... right after i finish this stupid donne paper, and maybe shortly after my head stops feeling like it's been stuffed with all those pesky pink piles of kleenex.... this written by Mel at 8:11 PM considering what a strong metaphore it was for love in the seventeeth century, you'd think that a perfect circle would show up in more of today's modern song lyrics. unfortunately, a perfect circle is the name of a band, which is totally messing up my google search. i think i'm just iritable because i'm terribly ill and fighting off the kind of fever that they wrap you in ice for. there's no way i'm going to the doctor's just to fight off pounds and pounds of ice. again. on the other hand, if i don't get better by tomorrow morning, i may be forced to face my deepest of fears, seeing as how I haven't been to school in more than a week because of the conference and I haven't been to work since I got home thursday night. i guess i'm just getting old. darn my birthday. darn getting old. as as long as i'm being irratable, darn donne, who is only slightly better than shakespeare. and death to telemarketers, yeah.... i don't want to go back to school. i feel crummy. i wish i was with tom. at least then i'd have someone to talk my paper out with and such. sleeping all day yesterday just made me feel unproductive. i wish school was over.... this written by Mel at 6:34 PM Friday, October 10, 2003 so i guess today is my birthday... it doesn't really feel any different than any other day other than i'm not going to work and its sort of rainey.... yay... beverly just called.... so i guess it's officially my birthday now. Virginia went really good. We had the best flight attendants on the puddle jumpers from Chicago to Roanoke. Even though our first plane on the way out had to turn back because of mechanical problems. It was still really good. Tomorrow is the national kick off for 40 Days of Purpose. I'm trying hard not to think about it.... this written by Mel at 12:59 PM Thursday, October 09, 2003 Virginia has a lot of trees. I'm glad to be back home. Wiped out, but glad to be back.... this written by Mel at 8:06 PM	links to people: :: beverly's homepage :: :: beverly's journal :: :: tom's blog :: :: my blog's name is jennifer ... mackenzie's journal :: :: insanity is contagious...kunal's journal :: :: gary's kustace :: links to music: :: something corporate's official Site :: :: david crowder band :: :: dave matthews band :: :: dave matthews in brazil :: :: the get up kids :: :: further seems forever :: :: relient k :: links to neat stuff: :: it's walky! WIIGII! :: :: pvp :: :: the visual thesaurus :: :: maystar :: :: arr.... how to talk like a pirate :: :: the X Prize :: current book: lolita by Vladimir Nabokov. newest cd: "give up" by the postal service "destination beautiful" by mae "treats" from barsuk records "we have the facts and we're voting yes" by death cab for cutie "you can play these songs with chords" by death cab for cutie "something about areoplanes" by death cab for cutie "this is a pinback cd" by pinback "tell all your friends" by taking back sunday "a mark, a mission, a brand, a scar" by dashboard confessional "ok go" by ok go "how to start a fire" by further seems forever "two wrongs don't make a right... but three do" by relient k "transatlanticism" by death cab for cutie "the moon and antarctica" by modest mouse "on a wire" by the get up kids in the mail: big news: I'm gettin married.... email me about anything