Mel's Puddle of Thought

mel's puddle of thought ...
"... And I have to speculate that God himself Did make us into corresponding shapes like Puzzle pieces from the clay :: from "such great heights", track two on the postal service's album "give up" :: Tuesday, June 24, 2003 LifeHouse was absolutely amazing. I mean, so amazing. It was so cool. I could barely sleep. Fiction Plane was the other band, and they were okay; they were out signing stuff, which gives me hope for SoCo. Gotta talk to the love of my life... this written by Mel at 8:32 PM Tuesday, June 17, 2003 yay... school is over. That's really all I have... this written by Mel at 5:17 PM Friday, June 13, 2003 My last final in in one hour and 45 minutes. I hate Bio Statistics. But I think I am prepared. As prepared as I'll ever be.... My dad has decided that he wants to climb Mt. Whitney. Which is fine with me, whatever. But he also thinks that my sister and I should train with him. Not actually climb with him, no, but train. Oh boy. It's two days before father's day and I don't have anything for him. I mean, I know what I'm going to get, but it's going to be terribly hard to find and I suppose I should come up with a back up plan. I just want everything to be over. Blah. I was going to go see everyone in CO this next week, my mom, Papa, Grandma, Great Grandma, Uncle Ray, oh, and Thomas, who's dad will be out of town. But alas, Suzie is so excited about me actually being at work that I couldn't bare to dissapoint her... again. Besides, I'm already leaving her and the worship conference early for SoCo. So I guess I owe her this much... sigh. Okay, I'm going to go be angsty somewhere else now... this written by Mel at 8:47 AM Monday, June 09, 2003 oh yeah, and here's the link if any of you all want to go see Something Corporate with me July 18 at the OC fair... It's that purdy banner over to the left there.... this written by Mel at 6:13 PM I decided I want to procrastinate after all, as there is much on my mind and no where really to put it other than here. Becuase of the recent onslaught of entries by people who miss High School, I suppose I think it right for me to add something to this effect. The only problem here is that I don't miss High School, I mean, I hated High School, I was miserable through most of it. Instead, I miss being a kid, because for some reason it seems to me that I missed that stage of my life compleatly. My life got so old so fast... I mean, okay, here I am. I'm only 18, that's nothing. I can't even leagally drink. But here I am, working only just short of full time, I'm putting myself through school, I have practically no social life, I'm always working b/c I have to go to school so that I can work one day... it's insane. Oh, and I'm 18 and practically married. And I'm not saying that's a bad thing, I mean, it's great to be in love and I'm so lucky to have someone who cares about me, and to be able to care as much, as tom cares about me and I for him. And I'm not really saying I would change that, b/c I probably wouldn't, but here I am anyway. I mean, I want to go to Spain, and I can't. I guess I'm stopping myself. But I wouldn't care if it wasn't for him. I guess I sort of envy my sister, who probably doesn't have the capasity to actually attach herself to anyone. And who can blame her. Not me.... it took me nearly a year and a half and I'm still working on it. Shit, divorce sucks. No one got more screwed over on that than her. I sort of feel bad. At least, at present, I have someone to tell me I'm not fucked up, which is more than she has, most the time. Poor girl. But I guess she's not really the issue here. I really need to study for my finals, and you all are probably sick of reading by now. I just want school to be over. I want Tom to hurry up and get out here so I can have as much fun as the Church Staff Rules of Conduct will allow. this written by Mel at 4:49 PM My sister just showed me an article from the OC Weekly that refered to Chain Reaction, that club down the street from me, as "OC’s Emo Mecca." This disturbs me to no end. Now I have no legit reason for refusing to take her, other than I think this article must have been published a year ago when there were actually decent bands, like New Found Glory. I guess I should have been paying closer attention when "D" from the NFG concert tried to tell me about all the great new local bands. Or was he just telling me to move to San Diego, where all the good bands somehow seem to congegate? So disturbed by this claim of Emo mecca that I think I might actually go back to studding to escape.... this written by Mel at 4:28 PM Sunday, June 08, 2003 OMG New Found Glory and Good Char. and MXPX was absolutley amazing!! It was sooo cool!!! And I met this guy, who's name is either Darrin or Derick, or something like that. But it was soooo cool! Next on this list is LifeHouse with Beverly. Then Something Corporate (!!!) and 311 (whatever) with April and Tom... Which all leads up to .. dum du dum... Dave Matthews Band with Tom and April.... yay!!!!! Finals are two days from now... I'm going to stop procrastinating now... this written by Mel at 3:50 PM	links to people: :: beverly's homepage :: :: beverly's journal :: :: tom's blog :: :: my blog's name is jennifer ... mackenzie's journal :: :: insanity is contagious...kunal's journal :: :: gary's kustace :: links to music: :: something corporate's official Site :: :: david crowder band :: :: dave matthews band :: :: dave matthews in brazil :: :: the get up kids :: :: further seems forever :: :: relient k :: links to neat stuff: :: it's walky! WIIGII! :: :: pvp :: :: the visual thesaurus :: :: maystar :: :: arr.... how to talk like a pirate :: :: the X Prize :: current book: lolita by Vladimir Nabokov. newest cd: "give up" by the postal service "destination beautiful" by mae "treats" from barsuk records "we have the facts and we're voting yes" by death cab for cutie "you can play these songs with chords" by death cab for cutie "something about areoplanes" by death cab for cutie "this is a pinback cd" by pinback "tell all your friends" by taking back sunday "a mark, a mission, a brand, a scar" by dashboard confessional "ok go" by ok go "how to start a fire" by further seems forever "two wrongs don't make a right... but three do" by relient k "transatlanticism" by death cab for cutie "the moon and antarctica" by modest mouse "on a wire" by the get up kids in the mail: big news: I'm gettin married.... email me about anything