Mel's Puddle of Thought

mel's puddle of thought ...
"... And I have to speculate that God himself Did make us into corresponding shapes like Puzzle pieces from the clay :: from "such great heights", track two on the postal service's album "give up" :: Saturday, November 29, 2003 i really need to write this paper. I can't concentrate to save my life. i don't even have three and a half pages... i just can't get intersted, and this isn't even the worst paper. I don't know how i'm going to pull off my poetry paper. I don't even know who/what i'm going to write it on. Write, focusing on Jean Toomer's cane. I can finish this paper. I feel like this hasn't even been thanksgiving break. i didn't go anywhere, didn't do anything. I stopped writing on Dante/Virgil/Homer/Saint Augustine for about three hours to eat ribs and hang out with dad's new girlfriend and her daughter on Thanksgiving. Yesterday i was pretty sure i was loosing it, and with no one at home to make me stop the insane combinatin of finishing Dante/Virgil/Homer/Augustine and reading cane so i could start writing on it, i think i left for a few hours to go shopping. my mom is so wild about after thanksgiving sales. I bought a small gift for my sister and three picture frames. yup, that was great. its so weird not being with tom for thanksgiving. it sounds stupid to say that we've never spent a major holiday apart..... but really, we haven't, for the duration anyway. i think my dad said it best tonight as we were watching the end of 'a walk to remember." and i quote (my dad): "young love sucks." well, he could have said "young love's a bummer" anyway, you get the drift. and, sadly, that pretty much sums up my entire existance right now. young love. bummer. sometimes i wish i hadn't met tom until i was out of college, because a) we could be together b)we'd probably be married by now and c) i wouldn't have to be distracted by college angst. but then, everything looks better from a temporarily different perspective. i dont' understand why i'm so driven to type on and on here, when i can't focus long enough to get a decent sentance down on my modernity/modernism paper. it just figures. i'm too used to being concise. Jane's got me to where i can whip out a two to three page paper accurately summarizing the intertextualization of four of the most influential works of western literature. A six page paper is just too drawn out for now.... sigh... i guess i should start working on it anyway. oh, right, what i started to say in the beginning... it doesn't really feel like thanksgiving, so i haven't really been able to devote much time to the usual thanksgiving reflections. but if you're reading this, i love you, and i'm thankfull for you, and you really mean more to me than you could ever imagine. i really believe that , despite all the angst and meloncholy that i've been putting you all through the past couple weeks, I really am one of the luckiest people ever. and that's all becuase of you. this written by Mel at 10:02 PM Thursday, November 27, 2003 so i'm back in california. i miss tom. happy thanksgiving everyone. this written by Mel at 7:40 PM Sunday, November 23, 2003 so here i am in greeley. it's cold. i'm worried about bev. at least i have the newest reliant k cd to console me. oh yes, and there's tom. but its a bummer because i think i'm getting sick and i'm bummed in general so its not like i'm being as agreeable as i should be. we went to see love actually, which was actually very good. supprising, realy, considering that hugh grant was cast as the prime minster and billy bob thorton was the pres of the us. yes, that part was scarry - tom says "really funny" - but no matter, in spite of this the movie turned out good. warm and fuzzy. with out the mold. i'm ready to be out of school. beverly, you'd better be taking care of yourself. this written by Mel at 11:04 PM Thursday, November 20, 2003 i also think that i should look into Relient K. I read about them in a back issue of CCM or worship leader magazine... can't remember which. Here's a line from their (then) new album: ...I'm poor, I'm starving, I'm flat broke, I've got no cash to spend, sold all my books for front row tickets to Dave Matthews Band... any band who needs money to see dmb need me to buy their cd... don't you think? this written by Mel at 9:12 PM Anyhoo, there are a couple of moving moments and seeing how the entire movie is just 38 or so love stories rolled into one, you'll most likely feel warm and fuzzy on your insides. But you better check that the warm and fuzzy isn't mold. Because if it is, you're in big trouble. this is from monkey business, a really funny web comic that Tom just disovered and shared with me. The above quote isn't from an acutal comic, obviously, but from a movie review of Love Actually. Still, the webcomic is funny. Check it out. Also, have I mentioned that Death Cab for Cutie is really really good? this written by Mel at 8:53 PM Monday, November 17, 2003 Mom Finds Out About Blog and, of course, the Blogger official responce: What to do if your Mom Discovers your Blog I really need to start working less. The internet is far more amusing than I had realized.... this written by Mel at 7:46 PM death cab for cutie is a really kickin band this written by Mel at 7:45 PM Tuesday, November 11, 2003 Funny but true: For those not familiar with Cousteau, just turn on the TV and you can catch their "Last Good Day Of The Year" track featured in the new Nissan advert. They've joined the increasingly popular ranks of unknown bands whose music is all over car commercials. From pollstar.com Appariantly Nissan really likes the good indie bands. They're also playing "Gravity Rides Everything," a Modest Mouse song from their 2000 "Moon and Antarctica" cd... this written by Mel at 6:37 PM Monday, November 10, 2003 Went to see SoCo Saturday night with dad and some new friends from Crave.... it was one of the most amazing set lists that they have ever played live... with a whole bunch from Ready... Break (their very first LP that you can't even get anymore) including "wait" and "Konstantine" and I finally got my cell phone to work there at the end so that Tom could hear Konstantine .... perhaps a sign to remind him of Ready....Break? Anyway, it was amazing. That was at the Poladiam in Hollywood. I just bought tickets to see them at Soma 18 December. It's going to be great. If anyone is going to be back in town then, let me know, and we can go together!! I also want to go see Pinback at the El Ray 19 December, but I haven't bought tickets yet. So behind in school.... I have two major papers due Thursday and I've barely started. Yay So Co!!!!! this written by Mel at 7:31 AM Tuesday, November 04, 2003 I just realized that I haven't updated fora while. Everything is okay again, except the heater broke on me last night. All of my midterms are today, so pray. Pray a lot. this written by Mel at 7:11 AM	links to people: :: beverly's homepage :: :: beverly's journal :: :: tom's blog :: :: my blog's name is jennifer ... mackenzie's journal :: :: insanity is contagious...kunal's journal :: :: gary's kustace :: links to music: :: something corporate's official Site :: :: david crowder band :: :: dave matthews band :: :: dave matthews in brazil :: :: the get up kids :: :: further seems forever :: :: relient k :: links to neat stuff: :: it's walky! WIIGII! :: :: pvp :: :: the visual thesaurus :: :: maystar :: :: arr.... how to talk like a pirate :: :: the X Prize :: current book: lolita by Vladimir Nabokov. newest cd: "give up" by the postal service "destination beautiful" by mae "treats" from barsuk records "we have the facts and we're voting yes" by death cab for cutie "you can play these songs with chords" by death cab for cutie "something about areoplanes" by death cab for cutie "this is a pinback cd" by pinback "tell all your friends" by taking back sunday "a mark, a mission, a brand, a scar" by dashboard confessional "ok go" by ok go "how to start a fire" by further seems forever "two wrongs don't make a right... but three do" by relient k "transatlanticism" by death cab for cutie "the moon and antarctica" by modest mouse "on a wire" by the get up kids in the mail: big news: I'm gettin married.... email me about anything